Hi! How are you? I miss you all

Its been about 2 years since I last uploaded something and about 3 years since I uploaded one of my own doodles. Such a long time. So why bother going back to Deviantart? Well I'll tell you why.

I miss everyone.
I miss everyones creativity. Everyones willingness to explore and produce artworks, doodles and thoughts. I visited today when one of my mates linked his artworks to deviantart. So I logged back on and the first thing I did was to browse though my gallery, reminds me of what I was like back in the day. It reminds me that I haven't changed. It inspires me to do mora! To get back into doodling! Put my thoughts onto paper! I cant promise I will do anything because I'll be busy in the next few weeks (moving islands and setting up a new life) but it really does push me to open up and let it all out.
Then I went though the comments and my watches. Thousands of artworks and hundreds of comments. I read every single one of them. I miss you all and your motivating words.
I must admit I got carried away last time on deviantart, I was so obsessed with getting pageviews, watches and llamas. I don't need them! Deviantart has a way of sucking you into that trap. I don't want to get back into that again. It makes me feel horrible that I've never felt satisfied with the attention I was already getting. DON'T GET SUCKED IN.
If I do get back into drawing and posting on deviantart I'll have to do a massive clean up. Separate my old works from the new. Do a complete shift in my layout and mass post new artworks. I wont get rid of my old colourful works but I will put them in some sort of storage.

There is something I want to talk about. About a month ago my brother passed away. He was full of life, high energy and at his peak. A firefighter in the army, saved lives, a great friendBrother to many and started to settle down in his new house. He suddenly passed away in a paragliding accident. I don't think about this tragedy, his final moments and "what if's". I refuse to dwell in these thoughts. I refuse to be taken down. I'm proud of him, when I finally got to see him for the last time I told him I was proud of him, a true inspiration of life and I will continue with him in my heart and mind. A man with a heart of pure gold and arms that reaches out to everyone in need no matter how horrible people treat him or use him. Many times he has given up his own bed to help a friend in need. He always has room in him place.
I will be moving down to the south island to start a new, I'll be staying in his room and continue renovating the house. I got a lot to do, find a new job, get into new hobbies and live a more open life. 12 days to go and I'm so excited
Ever since the passing of my brother I have been doing some reflecting. Who am I and what do I want. Who should I surround myself with and what can I do. This new life should give me a chance to open something. I look forward to everything.

Thank you for reading, its good to get some of this stuff off my chest. So how have all of you been in the past few years? Whats changed on deviantart? Tell me, how has your artworks changed in the past 3-4 years? Do you believe you improved? Are you happy with what you got? Have to got plans for your future self? I'd like to read what's on your mind now